Stars Hollow – I Want to Live My Life | Album Review

The message behind Stars Hollow’s breakthrough EP Happy Again was always sitting right there staring us in the face. “It’s not that you won’t be happy again, you just won’t be the same as you were before.” A poignant (and very emo) sentiment lying in plain sight for all to see. The words used to build this statement are scattered throughout the lyrics on Happy Again (and even contained within the tracklist) but don’t reveal themselves in earnest until the final song, where lead singer Tyler Stodghill cathartically belts them all out in sequence. This lyrical throughline acts as the conceptual cherry on top of an already fantastic midwest emo release and signaled early on that Stars Hollow were doing something more than your dime-a-dozen emo band.

This sentiment lying at the center of Happy Again came straight from Stodghill himself reading about grief while simultaneously processing his own. This revelation that comes at the end of the EP acts as a stand-in for the quarter-life realization that so many of us have following the wreckless, immortal years spent as a late-teenage/early-twenty-something. Whether it’s heartbreak, death, or something in between, eventually everyone arrives at their own understanding of the irreversible nature of life. Some actions can’t be undone, some things can’t be un-lost, and some relationships can’t be salvaged. Happy Again just happened to land extra hard for me because it arrived at a time in my life that I was experiencing this type of deep-cutting and irreversible loss for the first time. 

Happy Again is a whip-smart EP with a poetic throughline that manages to get its message across in less than 15-minutes. It’s a feat of the emo genre and topping it was going to be hard. The band followed this EP up with the one-off “Tadpole” in 2019 and rode waves of DIY success to nationwide tours with fellow fifth-wavers like Origami Angel and Niiice. Now, more than two years since their last song and six years into their career as a band, the group has unleashed their debut LP I Want to Live My Life, and it is jam-packed with emo riffage, poetic lyricism, and a conceptual throughline that rivals their groundbreaking EP. 

Much like Happy Again, the concept at the center of I Want to Live My Life is sitting right there staring you in the face. This time, however, the words are only half the story. While the band hinted that the album had a concept like their prior releases, it’s clear that they weren’t going to tip their hand quite as easily this time. 

As I studied the tracklist for clues, I couldn’t help but notice how many of the song titles seemed related. “Through the Windshield.” and “Out the Sunroof.” Two references to cars. “Stuck to You.” and “Beside You.” Two songs referring to another person. There are also similarities in how the songs are stylized, with periods after almost every song title. Even the mid-album “...” is a punctuation-based song title much like “,” off Happy Again…  but what does it all mean?

When the listener hits play on I Want To Live My Life, they’re met with a sort of music box-like melody. Soon after this maudlin instrumental sets the tone, Stodghill enters with a delicate croon bemoaning, 

It’s like something’s in my closet
Laughing at me
I’ll learn to love it
Without it
I don’t think I could sleep
I wish that my comforts
were comforting to me
I want to live my life
but I’ll be here waiting…

That’s a lot to unpack, but before you can think twice about it, you’re swept up in a whirlwind of tappy emo instrumentation and screamed vocals mere seconds later. That effect is very much intentional because the preceding four songs hardly give you a second to breathe. There’s bouncy riffage and gut-wrenching screams on “Stuck to You.” There are heart-wrenching realizations “Until I Bleed Out.,” and self-destructive sentiments on “Out the Sunroof.”

Lead single “With Weight.” possesses the most fun, energetic, and dynamic instrumental on the record paired with some of the most remorseful lyrics the band has ever penned. This makes the party-hat-adorned music video feel even more apt as we watch the trio run rampant in a retro skating rink sharing birthday cake, sneaking gulps from the slushie machine, and racking up points on arcade games. These lighthearted childlike antics contrast with the group’s sweat-covered, emotional performance under the rink’s glittering disco ball. As the instrumental rises and falls around Stodghill’s wails, these two opposing feelings combine to evoke warm childhood memories of birthday parties as well as the cold, modern-day realities of adulthood. The song acts as a reminder of a time when fiscal responsibilities and emotional conflict seemed far off. It’s also a call-to-arms for the listener to suspend their disbelief, even just for a minute or two, and recapture this innocent feeling despite the looming dread of a never-ending pile of responsibilities. 

The record’s second half begins with the aforementioned “...” featuring a gentle guitar line that allows the lyrics to set a scene:

I took a step back
When I saw the window cracked
I pulled it shut
And I went back to my room where
I think something’s in my closet
Laughing at me
It’s hard to love
but without it
I won’t fall asleep
I hope someday my comforts
Will be comforting
I’m not sure if life
Is meant to be waiting…

Here, the imagery of an open window sits alongside the familiar scene established in the record’s opening track. As the guitar plays out the same music box melody, we realize the meaning in some of the phrases has shifted. Then, similar to the intro track, the band sweeps in with a bounding instrumental that leaves little time to reflect on the lyrics or the exact changes from their first iteration.

Throughout the next three tracks, the band winds their way from everything as physical as blood-soaked car crashes to things as existential and haunting as cold sweat nightmares. This feels like a good time to point out that each of these songs is masterfully crafted. Whether it’s Stodghill’s emo tapping, Gavin Brown’s buoyant basslines and phenomenal low screams, or Andrew Ferren’s precise drumming, the trio never falters once in their respective contributions. 

These songs all wind their way to the record’s inevitable conclusion on “But Better.” By the time this closing track rolls around, only 20 minutes have passed. On paper, that feels like hardly feels like any time at all, but then you look back and realize the preceding 20 minutes were comprised of life-threatening accidents and existence-altering revelations. Hardly emotionally recharging events. The record’s final song opens with a delicately plucked guitar as Stodghill sets the scene once more. 

I let out a laugh
When I saw the window cracked
I pried it open
But you pulled me back inside
Said “Life’s not kind”
I want to try

These lines depict the album’s cover, revealing the full context of this scenario we’ve been watching unfold throughout the record. After a beat, Stodghill continues with a verse that mirrors the opening track’s lyrics:

There’s something in my closet
Laughing at me
I’ll never love it
Without it
I could fall asleep

Now setting up a clear inverse parallel, Stodghill works his way up to the album’s namesake, singing,

I want to live my life
But better
I’ll face everything
I want to live my life
But better...
I’m tired of waiting.

After this final freeing cry, the group strikes one more resonant chord and lets it ring out for as long as their instruments will allow. As the guitar and bass fade, the same music box that led us into the release now shepherds us off into silence. This twinkling childlike instrumental provides a nice bookend to the album despite how different the two sentiments sitting on either end of the tracklist are. Sure, they may look similar, but the meanings behind these words could not be more different.

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What’s so different about wanting to live your life and wanting to live your life but better? The biggest difference is, in one, you’re merely surviving, but in the other, you are improving. In one, you’re living life for yourself, but in the other, you recognize there’s more than that. It’s one thing to live your life, but it’s another to want to live it better. Striving for improvement is a form of self-actualization, and that’s a far cry from remaining stagnant. 

Sometimes just wanting to live your life in the first place is already an uphill battle. Once you’ve reached the point of wanting to live your life, you are faced with a decision: do you maintain or improve? It’s like Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs; you have to work your way up the ladder in order to become the most fulfilled version of yourself. 

Wanting to maintain your life is fine; after all, why risk losing something you’ve fought so hard for? But wanting to live your life better is a mission. It’s admirable. It’s never-ending. There’s always something to be working toward and always something that you could be doing better. 

Wanting to live your life but better is hopeful. It’s the realization that you might be making it farther in life than you thought when you were seventeen. It’s the highest form of self-preservation. This is not just the mere animalistic instinct to stay alive, but a uniquely human desire to improve. 

Over the course of I Want To Live My Life, we hear one person’s journey between these two states. On the first song of the record, Stodghill hesitantly sings, “I want to live my life / But I’ll be here waiting.” In the final song, we hear the same person sing, “I want to live my life, but better. / I’m tired of waiting” with full conviction. What makes up the journey between those two points is everything that you hear in between. It’s the car crashes, the chipped teeth, and the concrete. It’s jealousy, regret, and doubt. It’s learning how to navigate life through a series of errors that Stodghill somehow manages to twist into lessons. The end result of all this suffering is a realization. At the end of all this is a reason to live. 

The Best of April 2021

Porch beer indie rock, surprise-released ska, and apocalyptic anti-capitalist sentiments make up the best releases of April.

Ratboys - Happy Birthday, Ratboy

Topshelf Records

For a day typically filled with fibs, fakeouts, and general tomfoolery, Happy Birthday, Ratboy is no joke. Surprise released on April 1st, the fourth album from Ratboys is a celebratory and reflective recreation of their debut EP RATBOY. There are gorgeous pedal steel contributions, well-observed slice-of-life portraits, and tales of elderly neighborhood cats. The second side of the album finds the band collecting long-unreleased tracks and rarities, all capped off by a sunny new song, “Go Outside.” Happy Birthday, Ratboy is continuing proof that ten years in, Ratboys are some of the greatest (and hardest working) ever to do it. 

Godspeed You! Black Emperor - G_d’s Pee AT STATE’S END! 

Constellation Records

Godspeed You! Black Emperor has always been a punk band in spirit disguised as a post-rock band in practice. While they are technically instrumental rock, the message behind their music was always lying in plain sight in the form of sampled field recordings, album art, coded song titles, and the occasional interview. In the case of G_d’s Pee AT STATE’S END!, the group released a manifesto featuring a list of demands ranging from dismantling the prison system to taxing the rich. They’re anti-establishment, anti-capitalist, and anti-authoritarian, and those topics are a lot to break down without any concrete lyrics. 

Despite their status as the favorite band of Rate Your Music Boyfriends® the world over, Godspeed really is that good. They’ve become a benchmark for an entire genre, and that doesn’t happen by accident. The group’s latest album is centered around two twenty-minute tracks, each punctuated by shorter six-minute songs. The result is a powerful and moving 52-minute run time that ends on a delicate but (surprisingly) uplifting note. 

Wild Pink - 6 Cover Songs

Royal Mountain Records

I love Wild Pink. I also love a good cover song. Throughout 6 Cover Songs, Wild Pink bandleader John Ross culls together a half-dozen tracks that suit every style and tempo of music captured on A Billion Little Lights from earlier this year. Following up one of 2021’s best heartland indie rock albums with a collection of covers two mere months later is an unexpected move, but I suppose in retrospect, 2016’s 4 Songs and 2019’s 5 Songs had set out a clear pattern. What’s more, the song selections are nothing short of excellent. There are some artists who feel like a shoo-in for this type of thing: Springsteen and Coldplay, echoing recent covers by Waxahatchee and Hovvdy, respectively. There are also some batshit crazy wild swings like Taylor Swift and Carly Rae Jepsen that appeal to my inner poptimist and are pulled from various comps over the years. Perhaps most notably, there’s a 49-second cover of the Jeopardy theme song plopped smack-dab in the middle of the tracklist that acts as a sort of pleasant, wandering interlude. Show me any other artist who can do that.

Jeff Rosenstock - SKA DREAM

Polyvinyl Record Co.

Jeff Rosenstock announcing a ska rendition of his latest album on April Fool’s Day was funny. Actually following through and dropping it on 4/20 was even funnier. Falling back on the ska-based instincts from his Bomb The Music Industry days, SKA DREAM is a complete track-for-track re-recording of 2020’s NO DREAM, and it’s glorious. For what could have just been a fun, jokey novelty, the songs work shockingly well in this new context. There are skank-worthy “pick it up’s” on “Airwalks (Alt),” a woozy dub breather in the form of “Horn Line,” and even a Grey Matter-esque hardcore breakdown on “S K A D R E A M.” Plus, with guest contributions ranging from PUP and Deafheaven to ska mainstays like Jer Hunter and Fishbone, SKA DREAM is impressively diverse, shockingly faithful, and wonderfully inventive. 

Remember Sports - Like a Stone

Father/Daughter Records

The resting state for the fourth album from Remember Sports is unwavering boppy indie rock. As they grew from emo basement shows and rough-around-the-edges recordings, Like a Stone sees a band evolving into a finely-oiled version of what came before. Thriving in the space between the jangly country-tinged Ratboys and the confessional bedroom rock ethos of Adult Mom, this collection of tracks strikes a perfect mix between emotional and easy-going. It’s breezy springtime music that isn’t afraid to shy away from the harder feelings of life. 

Spirit of the Beehive - ENTERTAINMENT, DEATH

Saddle Creek

The world is sick, and we are the ones who have poisoned it. More specifically, capitalism has taken in, used up, and discarded Mother Earth for its short-sited pursuits. These heartless, unfeeling corporations have perverted and discarded our home, all in the name of profit and appeasing shareholders. Much like the new Godspeed record, ENTERTAINMENT, DEATH is an album mired in the failings of the modern world. It’s a disorienting, uneven, and uneasy listen designed to emulate the feeling that comes from thinking too long about the system in which we are forced to exist. As sampled commercials punctuate the band’s electro-psych indie rock, one can’t help but wonder if we’re witnessing the death throes of a dying empire. By the time the record is over, it genuinely seems like death is letting the system off easy.

PONY - TV Baby

Take This To Heart Records

When I first heard “WebMD” back at the end of 2020, all I could think was, ‘where has PONY been all my life?’ Effortlessly catchy, disarmingly personable, and scarily relatable, PONY spends a vast majority of their debut album cranking out tightly-refined grunge-pop tunes in the vein of Charly Bliss or Colleen Green. The songs glitter and glisten, accurately reflecting the album art’s sugary sweet bubblegum pink color. The combination of Sam Bielanski’s sharp vocals over the fuzzed-out guitar proves to be a beguiling mix that will keep you coming back for more like a bowl of candy that you just can’t seem to keep yourself from snacking on by the handful.

BROCKHAMPTON - ROADRUNNER: NEW LIGHT, NEW MACHINE

RCA Records

Even BROCKHAMPTON themselves wouldn’t deny they’ve hard their fair share of ups-and-downs. After a prolific three-album-run in 2017 led to high-profile lineup changes and a couple of rocky follow-ups, America’s favorite boyband is back and better than ever with ROADRUNNER. Welcoming a host of collaborators from Danny Brown to JPEGMAFIA, this record sees the collective leaning into a more West Coast style of rapping that suits them well. Each member has enough space to croon, spit bars, and produce without stepping over each other fighting for the spotlight. The result is arguably the most cohesive and crafted collection of songs the group has ever put out. 

Hey, Ily - Internet Breath

Lonely Ghost Records

When I sat down to listen to new music on Thursday night, I started with Internet Breath. That’s the kind of blind faith jump I like to take every once in a while, and boy did it pay off in spades here. Bearing a unique style of chiptunes-flavored emo, Internet Breath Is a six-track 17-minute excursion that defaults to catchy singalong hooks but occasionally vaults all the way up to a hard-hitting wall of distorted screamo. While emo can quickly wear out its welcome (even in 17-minute chunks), the electronic elements give this record a unique angle that feels refreshing from what’s going on in the rest of the scene. As the chiptune beats and autotuned singing depict a world of digital heartbreak, the electronics deftly shift between supplementary elements within the tracks to vital driving forces. A necessity.

Quick Hits

Noods - Blush - Effortlessly charming indie-pop bangers.

Lil Yachty - Michigan Boy Boat - An ice-cold, offbeat, and feature-packed “for the streets” tape from everyone’s favorite bead-adorned rapper.

Young Stoner Life - Slime Language 2 - Another collaborative compilation from Young Thug’s record label with Young Thug and Gunna serving as the Iron Man and Captain America-like figureheads. 

Taylor Swift - Fearless (Taylor’s Version) - A complete re-recording of the seminal pop star’s sophomore album with bonus tracks acting as the cherry on top of a (slightly tiring) near-two-hour listen.

Portugal. The Man - Oregon City Sessions - A long-lost 2008 concert film from Portugal. The Man comprised of one-take-only live tracks from their first three albums that did my PTM fanboy heart good. 

Sharon Van Etten - epic Ten - Disc one, a tenth-anniversary celebration of Sharon Van Etten’s sophomore album. Disc two, a track-for-track version of the same album with covers from everyone to Fiona Apple, IDLES, Shamir, and more!

Field Medic - plunge deep golden knife - It’s more Field Medic. 

The Berries - Throne of Ivory (Singles & B​-​sides) - Jaunty, jangly indie country that pairs perfectly with porch beers and wistful summer evenings. 

4AD - Bills & Aches & Blues - In celebration of their own 40th birthday, the longstanding indie label released this comp featuring current signees covering classic hits from alums.

Tilian - Factory Reset - The Dance Gavin Dance frontman takes center stage on his fourth alt-rock solo outing.

Trousdale - Look Around - Gorgeous harmonies and delicate sentiments make up this four-track folk-pop outing.

The Armed - ULTRAPOP - The once-anonymous punk band from Detroit that isn’t afraid to show their teeth while flexing their muscles on this bristling and artsy hardcore release. 

Dinosaur Jr - Sweep it Into Space - a shreddy, distorted return to form from one of the last(?) bastions of the grunge era. 

(T-T)b - Suporma - The first time I ever heard chiptunes, the genre blew my mind. Rock music and video game sounds? Suporma recaptures that magic with a slight emo twist. 

Origami Angel - Gami Gang - The sophomore double album from the emo duo with one of the strongest discographies in the scene. 

Manchester Orchestra - The Million Masks of God - Sad indie rock for emo dads.

Rosie Tucker - Sucker Supreme - Chill, folky, Sunday morning indie that (shockingly) wound up on Epitaph. 

Teenage Fanclub - Endless Arcade - Illusionary tunes oscillating from laid-back Silver Jews Americana to dirty garage rock.

girl in red - if i could make it go quiet - Norway’s answer to Billie Eilish unleashes her long-awaited debut album packed with heartfelt bedroom feelings. 

Gojira - Fortitude - Fist-balled, horns-in-the-air rock from the French metal quartet. 

DJ Khaled - Khaled Khaled - Look man, it’s DJ Khaled. There will probably be some breezy summer hits, some cool features, and some obnoxious adlibs. 

Every Origami Angel Song, Ranked

Photo by Bethunni Schreiner

Origami Angel is an emo duo from College Park, Maryland, currently signed to Counter Intuitive Records. Despite only having existed for four years, the band already has one of the best discographies in the scene. Their music is a unique blend of tap-happy emo, hook-heavy pop-punk, and sing-along indie rock, all topped off with a dollop of upbeat easycore for good measure. Gami’s lyrics range from the grounded nerdiness of Pokemon and Rocket League to more existential fears of crushing self-doubt and the complexities of modern relationships. The result is equal parts moshable, danceable, relatable, and quotable, where each song overflows with positivity and hyper-technical displays of instrumental mastery. 

Gami’s first official release, Quiet Hours, is a 2017 EP that the band members have since dubbed their “soft emo album before [they] discovered blastbeats.” The duo started to make a name for themselves in 2018 with their second EP Doing The Most. Featuring poignant sentiments, hyper-online tendencies, and a now-iconic Herman Cain sample, this EP put the band on the map of the wider emo scene and helped them find a community outside of their east coast home. 

In 2019 Gami’s hustle was undeniable. The band kicked the year off with a Split between themselves and fellow Marylanders Commander Salamander in January. They released a Pokemon-themed EP in the spring and embarked on their first nationwide tour that summer. By the time November had rolled around, the group released their debut record by way of an augmented reality tourism site. Since racking up glowing reviews and numerous album of the year placements (including our own), singer/guitarist Ryland Heagy and drummer Pat Doherty have become the face of emo’s up-and-coming fifth wave. 

I figured what better time than the release of the duo’s sophomore album to sit down and formalize my thoughts on the band’s discography before it nearly doubles in size. I want to preface this ranking with the disclaimer that I don’t think Origami Angel has ever made a bad song. This may be a “ranking” in the sense that the tracks are ordered by increasing quality, but this list is less “worst to best” and more “amazing to flawless.” These songs are all different shades of incredible, my hyper-subjective taste is the only criteria here. Truth be told, this entire article is just an excuse for me to write about all of the band’s songs in one place. That said, this order is definitive and inarguable… Just kidding, please tell me what you think of my ranking and share your thoughts at the bottom.

Also, if you’ve made it this far, here’s the ranking in playlist form, in case you want to listen along, skip to the end, or just hear all of the band’s songs in the most arbitrary way possible. 

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#30 - Osmosis

First up, we have “Osmosis,” the third track from Quiet Hours. I’ll admit I placed this song dead last out of respect for the band since they’ve once voiced it as their least favorite. I figured this list may be divisive, but we might as well start on common ground, right? Despite the band's self-criticism, I think this song is pleasant enough; the guitar line is modest, the drumming is loose, and the line “get out my head and in my heart” is cute. Not a bad place to start.

#29 - Mark My Words

“Mark My Words” opens with a sentiment that I think we all shared at one point in high school: “I don’t give a damn about conformity or who you think I am.” A little on-the-nose, but this sappy salvo makes way for a gorgeous bit of mellowed-out emo tapping that’s as reflective and meditative as the genre ever allows itself to get. Midway through the song, the band works this singular guitar twinkle into a fully-fledged riff before throwing back to the chorus one last time for maximum impact. 

#28 - Say Less

I’ll be honest, I love Somewhere City, but “Say Less” has always been a bit of a lull in the tracklist for me. Maybe it’s the slow open or the Star Trek clip that precedes it, but “Say Less” has always felt slightly different from the rest of the album. At its core, this is a song about a mean person who talks endless shit. Moreover, it’s about the person on the receiving end of this shit talking finding the power to fight back and stand up for themselves. A positive message, but possibly the most negative Origami Angel has ever allowed themselves to get, and that bums me out, maaan.

#27 - Step

Throughout this list, you’ll notice a trend of lots of Quiet Hours at the “bottom.” That's no fault of the band; they've just developed so much in terms of songwriting and production since their inception. “Step” is a lovely little romantic cut about needing someone by your side through all the ups and downs of life. Again, the band indulges in some nice guitar tapping and emo riffing throughout, even a little hand drumming at the end. The result is a slow-building love song that carries on despite the melancholy knowledge that love rarely lasts forever. 

#26 - Hey There

“Hey There” opens with a series of name drops that take me right back to high school. The lyrics “I told Jacob I was in love with you since last April” instantly evoke hushed conversations between would-be lovers exchanging feelings in a crowded lunchroom. As most crushes go, this one doesn’t pan out but still resulted in some heartfelt lyricism, impressive drumming, and long-forgotten inside jokes. 

#25 - Juultide Carol

For those of you that don’t know, I’m a big Christmas guy. I run a seasonal Christmas blog, for god’s sake. I delve into the Christmas tunes as soon as the clock strikes midnight on October 31st, but that seasonal window means that songs like “Juultide Carol” don’t get many plays from me. Instrumentally, this track is a step up from most found on Quiet Hours, but the lyrics hinge on a (somewhat played) atheistic refrain capped off by an abrupt ending that feels like a slight lack of payoff. “Juultide Carol” is still a fun little emo Christmas tune, but demoted solely because of my principles which only allow me to listen to it for two months out of the year.

#24 - w / u

Here we have possibly the most romantic Gami song. Despite the loving lyrics and adorable merch, I think that “w / u” fits better as a centerpiece within the context of Doing The Most than it does on its own. It’s a moment to catch your breath between the breakneck pace of “ROM Hack” and the emotional outpouring of “Thanks! I Hate It.” On its own, this track is an excitable romantic song that finds a couple in newfound love looking forward in time, eager to spend the rest of their lives together. It’s a beautiful sentiment, complete with a picturesque fireplace and a series of cherubic “woo ooh’s” that sound as if we’ve been struck with Cupid’s arrow itself. 

#23 - Greenbelt Station

I avoided putting any tracks off Origami Angel Broke Minecraft on this list because (good as it is), it feels wrong to include remixes on a song ranking. That said, the band introduced “Greenbelt Station” as a ‘new song’ during their digital set at Minechella in early 2020 where they first played this EP in full. The song is a stark departure from the then-just-months-old Somewhere City, finding Ryland playing an acoustic guitar alone by himself and crooning. It’s a solo acoustic song that feels very “full circle” and honestly could have fit in anywhere on Quiet Hours. Only time will tell how it fits into the band’s upcoming sophomore album.

#20 - XD Gale of Darkness

On the complete opposite tonal spectrum of “Greenbelt Station,” we have “XD Gale of Darkness.” This high-bpm closer features spitfire hip-hop vocals, crowd-churning blast beats, and a piercing screamo howl. It’s the perfect way to end Gen 3 and includes a shoutout to fellow fifth-wave emo rockers Stars Hollow; what’s not to like?

#21 - Escape Rope

False narratives, fake friends, and daylight savings time. As you grapple with these things throughout various times in your life, sometimes they can overlap in a way that feels like the world is out to kick your ass specifically. “Escape Rope” is a reminder to persevere. Its title comes from an item in the Pokemon games that can get you out of a tight spot if your squad of pocket monsters are in rough shape. This song serves a similar purpose, reminding the listener that they can always try to remove themselves from a bad situation at any given time. 

#20 - Welcome To…

The intro track to Somewhere City feels like boarding a roller coaster. It’s pure hype that gets your mind racing and your stomach full of butterflies. As you board the ride and the over-the-shoulder restraint lowers, you can only imagine what lies ahead. This feeling is reinforced as the opening notes give way to group chants around the two-minute mark, and the entire track picks up speed, shooting the listener off into the wondrous realm of Somewhere City.  There are rapid rises, sudden drops, and hairpin turns, all of which are exhilarating and everlasting. The best part? It’s only the first track paving the way for 30 minutes of equally thrilling emo.

#19 - The Air Up Here

Perhaps a coincidence, maybe a subconscious choice, it only felt right to link “Welcome To…” and “The Air Up Here” in this ranking given that they bookend Somewhere City. For a song clocking in at only 5 minutes, this track has a surprising amount of tricks up its sleeve. Not only does “The Air Up Here” loop back to the opening track a-lah Cosmic Thrill Seekers, but it also weaves together a medley that calls back to previous songs on the album in the vein of pop-punk greats like The Wonder Years. The song is one last push, one final reminder of all the sights, sounds, and experiences you’ve taken in during your stay at Somewhere City. It’s a perfect closing track, and the best part is that it opens the door for the listener to start it all over again. 

#18 - Origami Bagel

Perhaps one of the most bouncy Gami songs, “Origami Bagel” begins with a jubilant guitar that sets both the tone and tempo for the rest of the track. The song sounds like summer romance as images of random happenings flash before the listener: German television dubs, sunlit glances, and hour-long bus rides, all in the name of love. A guitar slide and mini scream signal the emotional climax as Ryland sings that he’ll “never be alone” as long as he has this feeling of the other person in his life. Just beautiful.

#17 - Ride Our Bikes to School

The opening song to Gami’s first-ever release, “Ride Our Bikes to School,” is blissful. The guitars are gentle, the drums are subtle, and the lyrics are heartfelt. The sentiments are as delicate as a bed of cherry blossoms. It’s beautiful, youthful springtime love. Maybe it will work out, maybe it won’t. Sometimes all you can do is sit back and enjoy the ride. 

#16 - fin (the long and untold story of how i know it’s meant to be)

“fin” begins with velvety smooth acoustic guitar and possibly the single sweetest line the band has ever penned, “I always knew you / Even before I knew who you would be / Maybe we were made from the same star.” A gentle cello enters the mix, softly guiding the listener like Homer in slumberland. As the narrator wonders if this relationship is fate or intentional, they look to the stars for answers, only to get a cosmic “no” in return. Are they going to let the celestial bodies dictate their love? Tune in next time to find out. 

#15 - Notice

One of the single most dynamic Gami songs, “Notice” begins with a barely audible acoustic guitar and softly-hummed vocals. “You may not notice, but I fucking love you,” Ryland explains earnestly. As they repeat this phrase, presumably in an attempt to get the person to notice, the instrumental suddenly swells to a fully-fledged shoegaze riff complete with distorted guitar, crashing cymbals, and a high-pitched wail. The same phrase is now delivered in a passionate scream, and it’s hard to imagine that the message went unnoticed after that. 

#14 - The Title Track

So what is Somewhere City? Well, the album’s title track contains every answer. Somewhere City is a place where you can let your hair down. It’s a place where you can be yourself, make friends, and bond over the same interests with ease. It’s also an escape from the real world where you feel like you have to shield parts of yourself. It’s a place where you don’t have to bottle everything up, and you are accepted for who you are. It’s a place with blastbeats and limitless love. The best part? Somewhere City isn’t something you can find on a map; it’s a state of being. It’s a mindset, and that makes it the ultimate escape.

#13 - Doctor Whomst

The second single off of Somewhere City is perhaps the single best manifesto of Origami Angel’s approach to both music and life. The track begins with two chuggy palm mutes before a whirlwind of emo riffage whisks the listener back in time. We soon find the band recalling how they used to feel watching Danny Phantom and eating Happy Meals as a kid. It’s a musical time machine back to a period in your life when the only worry you had was the next commercial break. It’s an anthem about reclaiming this youthful positivity and adopting it into adulthood. It’s about appreciating where you are now and still striving to achieve the best version of yourself. Thank you, Danny Phantom.

#12 - Emerald

Tonally similar to “Doctor Whomst,” “Emerald” begins with a hard-charging punky riff that paves the way for a friendly Mr. Rogers-type greeting. The sunny disposition in the “Hi!” at the beginning of the song quickly crumbles as Ryland addresses some faceless other who we find out has written him off. Even though they may still think he’s a selfish mess of a person, the peace in this song comes from knowing that you have grown. This detractor hasn’t witnessed that development, and frankly, they don’t care. It’s an important life lesson to learn that you can’t win everyone over, despite how nice you are. The important thing is that you keep getting better and know that the negative people will filter themselves out of your life on their own. 

#11 - effective. Power

Here, we start at the beginning. “effective. Power” may not be the first-ever Gami song, but it’s wild to think about how this track served as my entry point into the band. This is where it all started for me. The opening notes evoke a very specific time in my life while also perfectly setting the tone for the release. As the guitars tap and the melodies sway, this song really just feels like one big instrumental flex. It’s Gami operating at high capacity. At this point, they are already a well-oiled machine and perfectly in sync with each other. 

#10 - 666 Flags

“666 Flags” is a song indulging in the scenario that every kid who played Roller Coaster Tycoon dreamed about; what if I got a roller coaster… in my backyard!? This song sits perfectly between the fast-food pit stop of “24 Hr Drive-Thru” and the nostalgia field trip of “Doctor Whomst.” This song is the perfect connective tissue of childhood dreams come to life; the only difference is, in Somewhere City, those dreams are only a thought away. 

I still remember my first listen of this album, driving from Detroit to DC for the record release show. I must have been in the far left lane going 80 or 90 miles an hour, flying down the highway. As soon as the chaotic hardcore blast began in the final minute of the track, I remember looking in the rearview mirror and seeing tears welling up in my eyes as goosebumps popped up across my body—the perfect first listening experience. 

#9 - SpaceX T-Shirt

Here we have the final Quiet Hours song on the countdown and also Gami’s first biggest “hit.” The twinkle is strong with this one. On “SpaceX T-Shirt,” the band balances a heavenly effervescent melody with romantic lyrics like “I can only get to sleep if I know you'll be in my dreams.” The group continues this train of logic with, “And I can only dream if I know you'll be sleeping next to me” before throwing to the riffage one more time. It's still fuck Elon Musk.

#8 - Denny’s Devito

One of the reasons I put “Say Les” so low on this ranking is because I feel like “Denny’s Devito” captures the same sentiment so much better. The track begins with self-isolation stemming from a deep well of insecurity. After all, nobody can judge you when you're by yourself. We’ve all over-analyzed in the mirror. We’ve all wanted to change for entirely superficial reasons. We’ve all wanted an easy out. While the first half of the song is mired in these concerns, a realization takes place halfway through as Ryland sings, “If I’m gonna die all alone, gonna have a little fun before I go.” This line throws to a breakdown and high-tempo burst of energy that is beautifully moshpit-inspiring. “Denny’s Devito” is a feel-good song in the face of not feeling good. 

#7 - Skeleton Key

“Skeleton Key” is a love song. The big difference between other love songs and this one is that “Skeleton Key” can apply to anyone in your life. This song can apply to your partner, your friend, your parents, your pets, anything. The track opens with anxiety about being away from your favorite person and how bad it would feel if you lost them forever. It’s the kind of perspective that being on tour brings out of nearly everyone. “I hope you know everything you do is special to me; you’re my skeleton key,” the band croons midway through the track. As the narrator assures this important person that they want to be there with them, the instrumental makes way for a phenomenal build of reassurances and a torrential outpouring of love.

#6 - Find Your Throne

Aside from Chunk! No Captain Chunk!’s “In Friends We Trust,” Origami Angel’s “Find Your Throne” is arguably the definitive song about the power of friendship. The track begins with a pounding hard rock rally that gradually builds into standard Gami fanfare. The song sees Ryland talking to the listener directly, tossing off vague affirmations, praise, and encouragement. 

What sets this song apart from the others on Somewhere City comes about halfway through, where everything quiets down to a hush. The midway point on this song is probably the most subdued the record ever gets, and it exists to shine a spotlight on the lyrics, intentionally making them impossible to ignore. Ryland sings, “I know it's hard to feel like yourself / When they see you and say you're somebody else / But I know you… I know you / I know it's tough, and that you've had enough / But if you feel like nobody does / I love you… I love you” It’s a beautiful, forthright, and wholesome message aimed directly at the audience. 

Suddenly the instrumental begins to build again. Ryland states, "And I won't give up that easily / Let me show you what I know…" the song drops out for a beat. A pinch harmonic comes in as he finishes his thought with a boisterous shout, "You're the goddamn king of the universe / Even when it feels like it can't get worse / All you need to do is find your throne / And you'll never be alone, you'll never be alone" a triumphant group chant then carries the song out for maximum positive friendship-fueled energy. 

#5 - Sapphire

In the lead-up to the release of Gen 3, Origami Angel released three of the EP’s four songs as singles. As hungry as I was for new Gami at the time, I tried my best to hold off on listening to “Sapphire” (the third single) until the official release. It just felt weird to have heard a majority of the EP before it came out. As I showed up to work the day of the single’s drop, a friend of mine convinced me to give it a spin and assured me, ‘dude, trust me you're gonna love it.’ Two lines in, and I knew exactly what he meant. 

With an opening salvo that name-drops Pokemon, Twin Peaks, and Rocket League all in sequence, “Sapphire” felt like a song tailor-made for me. The decision to filter a relationship through this densely-layered pop-culture lens is nothing short of genius. It is a love song unlike any other where the feelings of adoration are just strong whether they’re actively pouring out or you’re just chilling in bed together looking at Twitter. 

#4 - Thanks! I Hate It.

Perhaps my first favorite Gami song, “Thanks! I Hate It.” is an emotional powerhouse. The track begins bitterly as Ryland lays out the bummer qualities of someone’s personality. The band riffs, falls back into a dancehall gallop, then starts over again with a subtle emo guitar line. Suddenly, the emotions are bursting at the seams as every instrument turns up to eleven in a towering riff. Ryland screams the all-too-relatable lines at the high end of his register, belting, “I’m too broken to be with you / but I’m too scared to be alone.” Man. That shit hurted. 

#3 - 24 Hr Drive-Thru

If “Welcome To” (fittingly) served as the welcome to Somewhere City, then “24 Hr Drive-Thru” is the initiation. It’s a ride-along on a midnight McDonald's run. It’s the type of spur-of-the-moment decision that says time of day, weather, and number of calories be damned; I’m coming over, and we're going to hang out because that's what you need, and I care about you. 

Unforgettably, my first live experience with this song was at Gami’s hometown release show, where the power went out mid-song, but somehow the amps stayed on. Simply put, it was a powerful moment of Rock ‘n Roll Magic. As the band kept playing in the dark, the crowd kept singing along, eventually raising their phones one-by-one, illuminating the basement with the light of, fine, I’ll just say it; friendship. It was a beautiful moment and a live music experience I’ll never forget for as long as I live. 

#2 - Ruby

“Ruby” is a perfectly crafted song. It has storytelling, it has a catchy hook, it has impressive instrumentals, and it’s barely over a minute long. This is an earworm of a track that perfectly captures the spark of meeting someone new who completely enthralls you. It’s a borderline pop song. It feels like this could be covered by anyone from Charli XCX to Toby Keith, and it would still work. Of course, a track like “Ruby” could only come from the minds of Gami, who turn it into a sparkly, uptempo shredder with a melody that you can never forget. 

#1 - ROM Hack

There could only be one way that this list ended, and it’s “ROM Hack.” This is the Origami Angel song; it simply has everything. A classic (and hilarious) opening sample, jaw-dropping instrumentation, and beautiful, heartfelt lyrics. Hearing Herman Cain, of all people, say “I believe these words came from the Pokemon Movie” now gets me hyped beyond belief. Trying to keep up with the whirlwind of emo instrumentation that follows it is just as fun. The solemn first verse over acoustic guitar is pitch-perfect. The song’s slow build under the sentimental lyrics is masterful. The second verse is a flawless bit of emo penmanship so good that I’m just going to transpose it here in full:

And not that you'd care
But I started getting the help that I so badly need
And not that you'd care
But I found some people who really like me
But I hope that you do
'Cause I started bettering me 'cause I wanted to be like you

This verse is followed by one more instrumental drop out before the band returns full-force for a repetition of “I started bettering me 'cause I wanted to be like you.” The song eventually winds down gracefully, but not before one last crowd-churning riff designed to pull out every last bit of serotonin you had left. The definitive Gami song. 

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Well folks, there you have it, my ranking of every Origami Angel song. As the band revs up to drop their sophomore album later this week, I look forward to many more years of positive affirmations, exuberant guitar tapping, and immaculate drumming. Until next time, I’ll see you all in Somewhere City.

Hot Mulligan – Pop Shuvit (Hall Of Meat, Duh) | Single Review

Hot Mulligan have always been a delicious contradiction. Their music is equal parts catchy singalong pop-punk and hyper-technical emo. Their song titles are goofy in-jokes or intentionally obscure pop culture references, yet the lyrics contained within are as earnest as the scribbles in your pre-teen diary. The band appeals equally to the DIY twitter crowd as they do indieheads and prestigious publications (depending on how you view a 6.7). Despite the constant shit-posting, the Urban Dictionary-like name, and the absurd song titles, Hot Mulligan have emerged as a prominent act in the scene for one very simple reason: the songs are undeniable. The band can be silly and over-the-top because they know the music is that good.

While Hot Mulligan may have started with burp jokes and bitter sentiments, the message underneath has always come from the same heartfelt place. Over time, their sound has evolved from finely-crafted pop-punk to explosive, boundary-breaking emo in the form of one of the best records of 2020. Even though the group hasn’t been able to tour on you’ll be fine, that doesn’t mean they’ve spent the last year slacking off. Guitarist Chris Freeman has been dropping a steady stream of solo tracks; meanwhile, the band has sustained itself on drop after drop of absolutely killer merch. And now, on 4/20, the holiest of days for weed-hazed emo fans, Hot Mulligan have unveiled their next release, i won't reach out to you, along with a steadfast lead single to soundtrack all your cotton-mouthed antics.

Bearing an expectedly goofy title, “Pop Shuvit (Hall Of Meat, Duh)” begins with a mid-tempo electronic beat that immediately evokes some of the band’s previous hits like “How Do You Know It's Not Armadillo Shells?” and “SPS.” Before too long, the full band emerges, guitar, drums, and bass all synching up to the beat, accompanied by a subtle but radiant synth. 

This track is an interesting development of the group’s sound, leaning further into the “pop” side of the pop-punk spectrum. The instrumental is snappy, the chorus is earwormy, and the verses weave together pity-filled self-flagellations that sound as if they could appear underneath any one of your emo friend’s over-sharing finsta posts.

My only ding against the track is how straightforward its structure is. The verse, chorus, verse deployed here regrettably doesn’t leave much room for range in the vocal deliveries or instrumentation. Whether tracks on you’ll be fine were exploding to life or burrowing deep into their own sadness, they always felt like they had somewhere to go. By contrast, “Pop Shuvit” feels like a slightly toned-down version of things the band has done before. There are no high-pitched yelps, zero hardcore breakdowns, and not a trace of jittery instrumentation. 

Truthfully, I can’t be mad about the prospect of new Hot Mulligan songs because the band has never missed once in their seven-year history. “Pop Shuvit” sounds like it could have fit in just fine on 2018’s Pilot, which will either be a disappointing or exciting prospect depending on who you ask. For me, the frenetic, spontaneous nature of you’ll be fine was the best version of the band, but who among us has not grown less impulsive over the past year? Either way, I’m excited to scream along with “Pop Shuvit” as soon as it’s safe to do so, and I can’t wait to hear i won't reach out to you when it drops on May 28th.

Lilac Queen – Things Are Different Now | EP Review

Things are changing. Always. When you’re young, that prospect is exciting, if not a little hard to wrap your mind around. If you’re not careful, the constant nature of change can gradually shift from thrilling to terrifying as you get older. In life, you have two options; you can either lean into change and make the most of it, or you can give in and let change overwhelm you. No matter which path you choose, you must first process through the very nature of change itself, and that’s precisely what Lilac Queen is doing on Things are Different Now. 

The two-song EP from the Massachusetts-based No Sleep Signees begins with the jangle of a solemn grungy guitar. Shortly after these mood-setting strums, a single snare hit signals the rest of the band’s entrance. Suddenly the guitar, bass, drums, and a whirl of distortion all congeal into a swaying shoegaze riff reminiscent of Pity Sex. As the verses work through sentiments of shame and remorse, the chorus finds lead singer Lily St. Germain openly questioning their actions, singing, “and I wonder if I’ll get into heaven without digging holes under the fences.” They continue, eventually reaching something resembling a resolution, “and I wish I knew what I did to deserve this / it looks like I’m taking my chances.” As the final words of the third chorus ring out, a sear of distortion revives the band for one last push, the musical embodiment of telling yourself ‘you’re almost there.’

Shortly after this explosive final riffage, the song eventually fades, making way for a swirling ambient piece that flows seamlessly into the second track. Much like the first song, this ambient stretch is similarly interrupted with a series of snare hits followed by an equally hard-hitting riff. Here, guitarist Dug Demars takes up vocal duties in a disaffected Gleemer-esque manner over the instrumental. Eventually, both vocalists team up for the chorus, which also bears the release’s namesake, simultaneously singing and screaming, “Things are different now, there’s no way to go back.” 

The sentiments captured in this song’s chorus are the exact type of reckoning with change that everyone must face at some point in their lives. Whether it’s the loss of a loved one, the heartbreak of a decaying relationship, or just the constantly changing nature of life, sometimes it can feel hard to keep up. The release ends with a high-frequency guitar solo accompanied by crashing cymbals and rattling bass, all of which gradually mellow out into a nice instrumental landing strip that leaves the listener just enough time to meditate before the song fades into silence.

The prevailing sentiment throughout Things Are Different Now is sitting right there in the title. On this release, the band finds acceptance of change through their own resilience. No matter how painful or unexpected change may be, recognizing that it exists in the first place is a vital part of the process. Things Are Different Now is a 7-minute document of a young band coming to terms with that fact.